God's purpose

I have been home in the states for a while now and still trying to figure out what God's purpose in sending me home was. I know God's plans our bigger than any of ours and I also know that it is his plans that prevail and not ours. Since I have been home I have got to spend some time with my family and friends and even have had some wonderful conversations that would not have happened if I would not have been here.

I mentioned before about how much has changed since I have been home but what I have come to realize is that nothing here has changed...I am the one that has changed. After adjusting and living life in Slovakia then returning here to the states has been difficult for me. I was warned about reverse culture shock and now I understand. Coming home I felt like I was displaced...I know this will always be home for me but after being overseas and really adapting and establishing a life in Slovakia I have felt my home there and now being back here I don't feel so "comfotable" here. Through this I am realizing that for the rest of my life I will always be homesick in someway. I have poured my heart into the families in Slovakia just as I have my family here in the states...there is now pieces of me spread out all over the world and I will forever be homesick where ever I am at. At first I started to feel bad then realized that I am right where God wants me, "...to be an alien of this world." Although scary and comforting at the same time, I know that I am where God wants me and that to me is home.