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Friday, February 17, 2006

"God does not give us overcoming life-..."

Lately I have been trying to figure out why in the world I am still state-side. I know God has a reason and purpose for everything but there are times that I just want to know at that very moment the answers, don't you?

Today I just thought I would share with you what has been on my mind recently. I was reading my daily devotional today, "My Utmost For His Highest" by Oswald Chambers, and this particular phrase caught my attention so I read it several times to digest it... ""The remarkable thing about spiritual initiative is that the life and power comes after we "get up and get going." God does not give us overcoming life-He gives us life as WE OVERCOME.""
WOW! So powerful.

Isn't that so true? There are so many things in life that we eventualy overcome. The past few months that I have been home in the states I have really battled being home and being satisfied with the season of life God has me in. So many times we get so worried about where we WANT to be instead of reallly embracing the season we are in at the present time...if we are too busy worrying about where we want to be then we might miss what God has to show us in our present place.


Thank all of you for your prayers and support...just so you know, as of today (2/17/06) I am stil state-side and will be here until the first week in May. My leg is healing and I have begun to walk, with an ankle brace, but there is still a slight break in one of the bones that is not healing very well. I have been in therapy for a few weeks now and have been seeing some progress in my ankle for sure. I would love to hear from all of you so please shoot me an email or phone call, it would be great to be able to sit down and catch up while I am in the states.

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

Can you trust your pilot?


Last week I got the opportunity to go flying in a small plane. It was really cool. Bryan, a guy from my church, flies planes and offered to take me. humm?? Small plane, young pilot, me with broken leg....lots to questions. But I trusted him. Not sure why because we had only really got to know each other since I have been home but he had confidence in what he was doing and I had no reason not to trust him.

This brings me to a thought I had today...it made me think of my relationship with our Lord Jesus. I know since I have been back in the states I have questioned Him a lot with why I am back in the states and why for so long and what is His purpose...so on and so on. I keep throwing out all these questions expecting an answer. Then I realized, why not just TRUST Him. God is my pilot and He knows what He is doing. This is no surprise to Him why I am here. He created us...we are so intricate and detailed that He knows EVERYTHING about us...just like Bryan flying the plane, he knew all the gages and what to do and what instrument was for what in order to operate the plane...


I know looking at this panel I would not have a clue on what to do! It looks too complicate for me but that is why Bryan flew the plane and I was a passanger (playing with everything..haha).

A lot of times we question our pilot, our creator in life, when really all we should do is trust Him.
This is something that I have thought a lot about since I have been home...I am ready to get back to my students in Slovakia and my minisrty there...but I know that God has me here, in the states for a reason.

So my question to you is... CAN YOU TRUST YOUR PILOT?

NO CAST!!!!!!!!

WOW! It has been several weeks since I have updated you all on my healing.... here is what is going on:

I got my cast off about a week ago and am in an ankle brace to help support me
while I walk. One of the brakes in my ankle is still not 100% healed but
doing better. The doctor wanted me to start therapy last week...after
leaving therapy today I am a bit sore. I do not have much motion in my
ankle at all, for instance I should be able to flex my foot back towards me
at about a 15 degree angle, I can only flex it 3 degrees. I am supposed to
be in therapy 3X a week for the next two weeks and then MAYBE drop down to
2X a week after that. I have exercises to do at home so that the process
will move along a bit faster.

Please be praying for my recovery because I am ready to get back to
Slovakia. I told my therapist I was going to return to SK on March
6th...she said (in all honesty) that depending on how the next couple of
weeks go that I may not be able to return until the end of March. I began
to cry out of frustration. I can understand where she is coming from
because I do not have the conveniences there as I do here...after 4 weeks I
could begin driving here and most places have elevators if need be and so
on...where as in SK I am on the 6th floor in my flat with no elevator (my
ankle is not ready for stairs) and walking everywhere I need to go. She
wants to make sure I am completely healed before returning...I do understand
but inside I am frustrated because I am ready to get back.

Part of me is upset because I want to get back to work there and be there a
sufficient amount of time before returning at the end of April to the states
for my brothers wedding...but I know and have faith that God knows what he
is doing. He had/has a reason for sending me home and using me here and I
have to have faith to know that when he is done with me here he will send me
back to SK.
I was told when returning here that my "mission call did not change when
going back to the U.S, only those you are ministering to." I continue to
remind myself of that and that I am God's vessel and he will use me when and
where he sees fit.

Some prayer requests would be:
* recovery of my ankle and a speedy therapy
* peace about being here until God calls me to return
* that I will continue to cling to our Lord each day and remember that this
is no surprise to him